Hope and Inspiration = Hi

My Family - Summer 2009

Since having the seizures in 2008 and all that occurred since (see my post "I choose Life"), I have realized that I got through that time with hope for life and the future.  But, I have also been inspired by the stories of others.  Life isn't always easy ... sometimes, it's downright freaking hard.  Do I wish that I had never had a tumor in my brain?  Darned right, I do.  However, I cannot deny the things I have learned from that experience.  Yes, I found out that I'm a pretty courageous gal, but more than that, I surprised myself in how much hope I had with my situation.  This tumor was not your run-of-the-mill, ordinary tumor ... no, this is the second worst that one could have.  I have been inspired by so many people since, for instance, the Nielson couple who appeared on Glenn Beck's show, who received terrible burns from an airplane crash.  I felt the same about being able to feel the prayers and positive thoughts of the people who cared about me.  I cannot be more grateful to them, and to my Heavenly Father, for not forsaking me.  I have other problems in my life, but they are nothing compared to this experience of having a cancerous tumor.

I have always felt throughout my life, that I was one who did not make much of a difference to the world.  I felt that no-one was truly interested in what I had to say or do.  But, since overcoming my cancer, I don't really care anymore about "being heard".  Those who love me, do listen, and I believe God is in Heaven, and He does listen to my prayers.  My faith fluctuates, but my hope never dies, and while there are people and situations that inspire one to carry on regardless of the pain (whether literal or figurative), then life is good.

I think it was Martin Luther King Jr who said: "If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward."   But, while we move steadfastly forward, we should take time to laugh, dance, pray in joy and gratitude, take time for friends and family, for your hobbies and interests.